School is Cool!!!

I went to school today! I am the oldest person in both of the classes I was in today, or at least close to the oldest....but ya know what? Until just now I didn't even notice. The instructor in my Comp 1 class is hilarious and I hope that amongst all that fun, I will learn something and become a better writer than I am now. The only negative thing I have found yet is there are 2 girls that were in my College Sucess class that are fresh out of high school, and very very giggly, they laugh about everything! The problem being they are in my Comp 1 class, when I saw them I went "oh man!" But I suppose I deal with my kids, and truly these girls don't act much older than them:) So I guess I will handle it ok.
I had homework for my Info Systems class, that I already got done....since Savannah is sleeping, and it isn't even due til Monday. The class is a Mon./Wed. class and the teacher has told us that we don't have to attend the Wednesday session as long as we email her and let her know that we are working on our assignments or that they are done. I am not sure though I may just go up there anyway, I am already up that early to take the boys to school and I do have a class at 10 after that one. Who knows?
Well I just wanted to pop in here and say hello, I am sure as the week goes by I will have more to tell you all. Have a great day!

I wish I could.....

Ok now today's blog is more of a bitch session than anything else, I am wanting to let the world know something that has always been a pet peeve of mine! There are some people in this world who love to treat service people like crap, it could be your waitress, the kid working the drive through, the person taking your dry cleaning, the list could go on forever...the point I am coming to is don't. If someone makes a mistake think of a tactful way to say "hey this isn't what I wanted, can you fix it?" 9 times out of 10 it is not an issue for that person to say "sorry I messed up, I will fix it right now." Instead there are those people who say something along the lines of "damn it I told you I wanted it this way!" with a very bad attitude, I can tell you that changes the response you will get from the person helping you. Now I ran across this the other day, and thought of all the people who are treated this way on a daily basis...although my customer not only treated me like a complete moron for messing up (which I fully admit I did...she wanted one thing and I was only half listening to her, my fault) later that evening she came back in for a pizza and made sure to point out my mistake while laughing at me and talking about me as if I wasn't even standing there. The truly frustrating part of customer service is the old saying "the customer is always right" this is not always true and when someone is belittling you and you can't say a word back it really gets you.
And now that I have bitched about this I feel much better about it.

Today is laundry day around my house....such a fun and exciting thing to do, and I was reminded by my eldest son today that they don't have school on Friday...so I need to get most of this house done before then, cause once they are home it will be hectic all day long. Especially since most of the kids around here go to another school, so there won't be anyone to play with.

Late Again...

Well it is the countdown to clean....I am beginning my clean sweep of my house today no matter what! I really hope to get at least 1/3 to 1/2 of the house finished by the end of the day! The kids were late to school this morning, it is so hard working until 11pm and then trying to be up and have them to school on time!
Yesterday I switched them to a different doctor office, see the kids have been seeing different doctors since they were born, CJ had a Dr. here in town who I really didn't like but that was who he was assigned to...Dillion went the same place I went while pregnant, and Savannah was required to be at a ped. office since she was a preemie. So I finally found a Dr. who could take them all, and hopefully this will be much better for me. Although I was on the phone for what seemed like forever trying to get it all switched and now I have to call 3 different doctors and have their records sent over to the new Doc.
I went to Baker yesterday and got my books, that was a long line....I can't believe that for 6-7 books my total was $360...but luckily for me financial aid covered it, and I still have enough left that I will be able to get a backpack (to carry all these heavy books) and some little things like pens, paper etc.
Not too much new to tell you all about. I guess I will try to write when I get another chance!

I am sleeping

Wow, my arms are killing me! We spent the day painting Claud's grandmothers house today, I am the type that only paints for a little while and then quits so helping to paint an entire house was very tiring. But the good part was in total there were 5 of us working on it which made it go a lot faster.
At the moment it is 8:30pm and I just woke up from a small nap, the bad part is later I will wonder why I can't sleep! I am hoping to get some of the house cleaned up before I go to bed, along with getting the kids clothes and whatnot around for tomorrow.
I have been hunting and running all last week, so not much got done around here. I really would like to get the house all clean and sparkly by the end of this week since my classes start next Monday. I am starting to get nervous about school starting now. Knowing that I have to carry a B- or better in all my classes to get into the surgical tech program is not helping me.
Oh and before I forget our 5 days of early hunting yeilded no results for me...so I suppose my sister will have to wait another couple months for her burger. Sorry Sis!
You guys have a wonderful week!

Hunting! Do not read if you are anti hunting...please

Yesterday Claud and I spent a good majority of our day in the woods. We got up at 5:30am and headed out, at around 7:30 I glanced behind us and saw that there were a whole line up of deer headed our way. This is highly unusual since in all the years we have been there they have been coming from in front of us, Claud planted food plots in the field this year and I guess the deer must like them because that is where they were coming from. Anyway, I got into the window and got my gun up, I watched them as they walked in and waited....breathing as much as I could to calm my nerves. I watched as the first doe approached who seemed to be a good size, I waited until she was in my sights and fired....I saw her kick a little as if she had been hit and Claud told me to rerack and hit her again to be sure...so I did and then I watched her limp off towards the south. Claud fired a lot and did hit one doe which dropped right where she was.
After a little while we got up and went to see Claud's deer and look for blood on mine. After we saw where Claud's was laying I started looking around for blood, and found a nice amount...we followed a good blood trail for a long ways, including finding a couple spots where you could see air bubbles in the blood, which means I hit her in a lung, I know she is going down now that I saw that! My excitement was very short lived however, we followed the blood trail until we came to the place it stopped...directly in front of the swamp which is very flooded and impossible to get through. I am a firm believer that if you shoot a deer you should track it as far as humanly possible...and we did, but unfortunalty she somehow managed to elude our efforts. I feel terrible that I was unable to find her not only because I know I killed her and she would be my first deer, but because I hate leaving deer lying...I hate hunters that shoot a deer say "must have missed" and never try to find it. This has always been my pet peeve and now I am stuck knowing I had to leave one behind.
So I suppose you can say I shot my first deer, but to me it wasn't tagged and I didn't bring it home so I can't claim it.
We also went out last night but all we saw was the same huge buck that has walked past us at 150-200yards and waved every year for a lot of years....he is a beautiful deer but he is also very smart and the chances any of us willl ever hit him are slim!
We are going out the next two evenings and Sunday morning. I am hoping for better luck, once I get my deer we are calling it quits until season however, we really don't want to spook the deer this early anymore than we did yesterday.
Well have a great weekend I will write more when I can!

Lots of Things Running Through My Head.....

At this point I have a whole slew of things that are running through my brain, it is terrible! First and foremost is that I am trying my best to plan a suprise party for my dear husband for his 30th birthday (not worried about posting this as he doesn't read my blog) I have the hall all set and I am working on the guest list which is an ongoing process as when you make a list like that you undoubtly forget someone along the way only to remember them later. Lucky for me this won't be taking place until Dec. so I have a long time to remember all those people I will forget. I do however think that he knows I want to have a party for him, even though I have assured him that I don't want to upset him anymore than he already is about turning 30 wink wink!
The second thing at this point is the fact that thanks to the no work situation we went through awhile back, I am still trying to dig us out of that hole...which seems like a neverending process, but I am making progress slowly but surely.
The last thing is that my depression issues are back in full swing I believe, I find myself dying out at about 1pm everyday and my brain is very foggy, not to mention the irritablity. I have fought to control this problem for 7 years now without meds. I was on them for a short time after Savannah was born, but I have tried to maintain this on my own. But with school starting and all the new responsibilties I am going to be taking on I think it is time for me to go to the doctor and let them help. I know I can't keep on living this way.

Tomorrow we will be attending a funeral in the morning. I can't imagine losing my parents and the more people around me that lose theirs the more I think of my own parents. Don't get me wrong my parents are in pretty good health as far as we know, other than my Dad has serious eye problems that require injections every 6 weeks. But I also know that they are not spring chickens, they are 61 and 62. I was born 12 years after my sister which makes me the child of much older parents than most people my age, over the years I have thought about the fact that because my parents are older there is a chance that I will lose them earlier in my life than I would like. But I just live everyday and try my best not to dwell on it, that is until something happens that makes me remember.
Other than this there is not much else to say, I hope you all enjoy your day, mine will be spent cleaning and laundrying.

Better than expected

Last night didn't go as badly as I thought it would, in fact not one person complained about the prices! And according to my Dad nobody complained during the day either. So either they just didn't notice, or they understood...either way I was happy.

Before I went to work however Claud gave me some bad news a friend of ours lost his Dad this week, he was a nice man and a friend of the family. He was always at our functions, while he could still get out, unfortunatly his health has been fading over the last few years and he finally lost the battle. I am asking you all pray for his family during this time of need.



As for me I am going to be spending the day doing all the things that I didn't get done yesterday, like the cleaning and whatnot. I was hopeful all night that my wonderful husband would suprise me while I was at work and clean the house, but alas it is still messy. So I am finishing my coffee and going to do what I should have done yesterday.

Hi

It is going to be a long day I tell ya'. I have so many things that need to get done and so little ambition to do anything. I need to make phone calls, clean house, do laundry and then tonight go to the resturant and fill in for my Dad. The last thing will be good because it will give me a chance to read the book for my class Saturday, without too much interruption...that is a whole other story! I can already see the effects of our local shop laying off so many people as far as the local economy goes. It is amazing how many people work there and eat at my Dad's also, we aren't sinking but we aren't overly busy either. Not to mention that my entire night will be spent listening to the customers complain because my Dad was forced to raise the prices across the board, food costs are up all over the place and our prices were not reflecting this rise, and even though the customers see the increase in their own groceries they refuse to see why we had to raise our prices! It happens every time we have to raise prices, which is not often enough if you ask me.
I want to get so much done today and I feel that I may not get to it, for some reason when I know I have to go to work at night I don't really want to work too hard around the house.
I am getting more excited about hunting on Thursday though! I can't wait to get into the woods and hopefully see a doe! Actually I'd like to see a buck too, just to assure myself they are out there LOL. And for another bonus I have found out that Claud is not going to take a gun or bow out with us, he is leaving the hunting to me Thursday! He is only going for moral support...this is a good thing! I have to say he has tried very hard to be my teacher, and I know he is only going weaponless so that I may have a chance to get my first deer! Which I have to say is awfully sweet.
Well I will try to get some more posted this week, for now I am off to start making phone calls!

100th Post!!!

Wow I can't believe that I have posted 100 entries on here already! It seems like I just started doing this yesterday.
Today was my first real college class...I was there for 5 hours today, and learned a lot about myself, which may be what is leading me to my post for this evening. I reflected a lot about where I have been and where I am going in my life.
The first thing I reflected on is the people that made me who I am today, those few people in my life that I will never ever forget even though they are in my past. Through my middle/high school career I really only had 4 people that I considered my true friends, those that were by my side no matter what. If I had a problem they were always there to talk, to laugh with me, to cheer me up or to serve me a beer or ten until I forgot what was wrong. I was lucky to have them in my life and there are times that I wish I still had them, although for all different reasons I am not close to most of them anymore. I will let them remain nameless for the purposes of this but some of you reading this may know who I am talking about if you know me at all and that is ok. First and foremost there was the neighbor to the west of my parents, he was my biggest confidant, I told him everything that happened in my life. If I was sad he was there in a heartbeat to cheer me up, during the summer months we seemed inseperable, if I got a boyfriend he was friends with them too so we could all hang out. If he was out riding his dirtbike I was watching, if I was out swimming he was with me. There was a short time we tried to be more than friends and it didn't work, and before I ended up with Claud he wanted to try it again, but in my eyes he was nothing more than the brother I never had, which is why we are no longer close...it makes me sad to think all we are now are people who pass each other in cars and wave, and say hi if we bump into each other, but I guess that is how life works.
The second person lived around the corner as with the first one her and I were insperable, but over the years our friendship just kind of slipped away, I can't really say why or when but we just drifted, there are times that I wish I could just talk to her about my life and kids and ups and downs, but I know now and have learned to accept that we will not be like we were ever again. No matter how much that hurts.
The third person lived on the east side of my parents, he was much older but was a terrific friend to me, the story with him goes a lot like the first neighbor boy, but my problems with him were more to do with age than anything. I miss talking with him about life and learning about the world outside of Leslie, he has lived in so many different places. He moved out of state and I haven't even seen him in 6 years or so.
The forth person is the only one I still have in my life, and that is Claud. Although many people didn't see our relationship over the years he has been a rock for me since I was 14. He has always been the one I called at 11 at night because my best friend hurt my feelings, or my boyfriend dumped me, or just because I was having a bad night and needed a shoulder to cry on. The funny thing is we never planned to be a couple again and here we are threee kids and 8 years later.
I guess that I just wanted to take the time to actually write out all these feelings, I have had very few true friends in my life and I want those that meant something to me to know it. I know that after all these years I should be ok with not having these people in my life, and I am to an extent, I am very satisfied with the life I have and the people I have in it my family is my number one priority, but there are there are those days like today where I miss the people that helped make me who I am today.

Early Season Fast Approaching!!!

I am starting to get very excited about the upcoming early antlerless firearm season! For those of you that don't know, not only is my husband a die hard hunter I have been joining him for the last 3 years! Although I have not killed a deer as of yet, but as every hunter/huntress says "I think this is my year!"
I can't really say that I enjoy the hunting as much as I enjoy the quiet and the fact that him and I are together doing something we both enjoy alone. For the longest time I thought that the only reason I went was to escape the kids and spend time with Claud, but last year I was more into it than I have ever been! A few things happened last year that made me realize that I was serious about hunting. The number one would be that Claud took a 7 point during the bow season, as I don't bow hunt I was only there to watch. When I saw him shoot and realized that the deer was definatly hit good I grabbed my husband, hugged him, kissed him and kept repeating "you got him" I remember well the feeling of adrenaline that rushed over me. I can't explain in words how happy I was...the bad part was I think I was more excited than Claud...lol.
The second thing that happened was on the very LAST day of the late doe season, mind you I hadn't even fired my gun that year...we had 3 does come out...on MY side...and Annie Oakley the male version jumps out of his seat and positions himself on the floor of the blind directly in front of me!!! He shoots, he misses...the does stay. He fires again and hits the largest of the three...the other two stay. Now he knows damn well he got her....he also knows the others are still there and his wife may want a shot at one...he stays in his spot watching, in front of me and well for lack of better terms in my flippin' way! Then he turns around, looks at me and says "are you going to shoot?" Well cowboy where do you propose I lay my gun? On your shoulder? Long story short he did hit a nice doe...which I REFUSED to track. And I didn't speak to him for a day or was it two? I don't remember well...all I do know is in 8 years our biggest fight has been that one, and that folks has taught me I truly love hunting!
So tonight, one week from opening day of this early season my husband and I will go to the woods unarmed to watch and see what kind of chance we have next Thursday morning. I am going to be doing a lot of praying for the next week, and lucky for me Claud is using a bow....so hopefully I can steal a shot from him!
Until Next time.....

Dum Dee Dum

So far this week nothing real eventful has happened. I am still waiting patiently to start school, I am sure that I should be enjoying this time...as I know it will be much more stressful once school starts. The boys are beginning to adjust to the new school schedule, although Dillion has had a harder time than Cj with the sleep schedule. He seems to be cranky in the afternoon still but we are working on it.
At the moment we are still trying to find Claud a truck, this has been a long and tiring process for us. But we aren't giving up hope completely yet, and we aren't settling like we have done in the past when car shopping.
I have a class on Saturday that will teach me how to suceed in college, or something like that. I am really not looking forward to it as it is 5 hours long, I have to be there this Saturday and next. But it is required for all incoming freshman, so I will be there with bells on my toes!
There isn't a whole lot else going on, wish me luck!

Headed Home

We made it through the weekend and are now headed home. I think we have about an hour left before we are there, I am so ready to go home. This was our offical end of summer trip, even though school has already started.
Dillion did a lot of fishing this weekend, he managed to catch a few. CJ really didn't do a lot of fishing. We took Savannah out in the boat a couple of times and she really suprised me, she did pretty well considering she is only 3 (almost). I even let go of my nerves long enough to take her out in a canoe, I carefully explained that we can't move around in the canoe or it will flip over and we will get wet. I put her in the front and I rowed and she did awesome, she sat still and just looked around, we didn't go to far from shore but enough for her to get a chance to ride in one. The main reason I did that was the boys and my sister in laws kids, were in the lake learning to run a kayak! If you would have told me 7 years ago that "7years from now CJ will be rowing a kayak all alone in a lake" I would have freaked and said no way! That is dangerous. But he did EXCELLENT and I was so proud! I truly enjoyed watching him learn something new.
Well that is all for now. I will update on our week as soon as something new and exciting happens lol.

Updates

Well the boys have been in school for 2 days now and seem to like it just fine. Cj really likes his teacher this year, and Dillion has known his teacher since Cj had her and always liked her. The only negative thing is the getting back into the swing of things with the boys. They are not used to getting up so early in the morning so by the time they get home from school they are quite the cranky little guys. I know this will take awhile to get the hang of.
This weekend we are going to go camping again, we are leaving on Friday and will be back Sunday. This time it is a trip with Claud's parents and sister's family. I am hoping to have a good time, and hoping it doesn't rain the entire time we are gone. The only thing that I don't like is that Savannah is really to young to get out in a boat, and most of the trip is spent fishing. I think it will be ok though, her and I can find other things to keep us occupied if need be.
I just booked a party for Oct. 18th it is going to be lots of fun. It is an adult party and hopefully the turnout will be good for it. I am thinking of hosting it at my sisters house however so there is more room for people.
Well I hope you all enjoy your weekend, I doubt I will be on here again before our trip.

It's Quiet....Too Quiet

As I sit here it is 8:30 in the morning, and the boys are at school where they will remain until 3pm. Savannah is still sleeping soundly in her bed and I am thinking of how very quiet it is here. I have waited and waited for this day (well kind of...I've waited for all of them to be gone) and now that it is here I am a little sad, which suprised the living crap out of me this morning! I really thought I would just drop Dillion off in his class and dance away from the school....didn't happen that way. I did drop him off and pulled myself out of there, my theroy is the longer I stay the harder it will be for him. Then I wandered down to CJ's class and settled him in. As I walked back down the hallway to head home, I found myself peeking into Dillion's classroom one more time just to be sure of what I don't know...to see if he was crying? To see if he was still there? To see if he missed me yet? I am not sure what I hoped to see, but I know that he seemed content, and off I went.

Here are some pictures for you all to enjoy.